The Giving Tree

Another melancholy day.

Well, here I am, with a list of things I should be doing, but feeling 100% unmotivated to them.

Feeling rather alone today (well I am, but I mean really alone).

I have been blessed with innumerable "friends" but I lack a true one friend that will not judge or disappear when things get too serious or tense, or seek to help simply so they can be "in the know" or somehow "important".

Sadly, I know it's not just me. I am quite sure many folks have the same issue... friends you can trust up to a point, but when you are feeling emotionally "wacky woo", they disappear or they expect and want and take and don't listen to the deeper message you have been sending through your subconscious actions and words... too burdened with their own life's issues to be able to really help you with your's.

For anyone who has a true friend that you can spout ridiculousness to, burden with your problems, call on in time of need and yet they still stand true... Feel truly blessed and let the person know how much you appreciate them. You have a treasure there and I envy you.

Selflessness is so NOT a part of modern man's thinking. All of us are guilty of it. But it's saddening how we have really lost the ability to caqre, without wanting anything in return except for respect and consideration.

Often (and moreso today) I feel much like Shel Silversteins "The Giving Tree", except my humanity rears it's head occasionally in the form of spite, sharp tongue, detachment, et al. So, I guess I feel like a sharp, thorny "giving tree".

Really wishing I had my own "giving tree"... even if it may be a bit thorny.